tak nak terima kenyataan!!!

kenyataan sangat menyakitkan..

so for today's post regarding exams..

NO COMMENT!

very very very very very very very UNHAPPY

new year = new hair style?

tahun baru hampir tiba

fikiran melayang-layang

cuty sem

family vacation

azam baru

sem baru

jiwa baru

semua baru

dan secara tiba-tiba terfikir nak rambut baru

rambut baru = shorter hair

okay..fine..expresi melampau..

i noe..

alya + short hair = IMPOSSIBLE!

hurm..need advice and support from friends..

should i or should i not..

friends..comment please..hehe

diagnosis!!

exams again

at times felt very stupid

answering the paper without knowing a thing

just like today

for actually missing out 1 presentation

only 1

yet it came out with the most questions..

only 1

that i absolutely have no clue

only 1 stupid yet full of information presentation

it holds my future

how i hate the feelings

knowing i'll never pass the exams

knowing i have to stay

knowing i have to extend my ticket

knowing i have to cancel/postponed all my holiday plans...

todays paper

1. anatomy : horribly done in UTS1 , n well done in UTS2

2. Patology Anatomy : repeat

3. parasit: repeat

percentage

UP ( 40%, seriously!!)

HOME, FAMILY, VACATION ( 60%, NOO!!)

no happy with maself..

tomorow is killer..

plis GOD..

My Wake Up Call..

First thing first.. i finish my TA!!! yea!!

let's celebrate!!

okay..done celebrating n partying..

back to reality

wat do u do wen u really love someone but somehow u can't show it

u wanted too but u just can't

stoopid? yeah..true..

very stupid..

but its reality

Stupid + reality = get a life!

yours truly..,

tidak semuanya seperti yang kita mahu..

since today is holiday, Christmas Holiday - wishing all my frens who celebrates Christmas, Merry Christmas!! - i kinda laze around on the couch watching tv all day long clean up the house and kitchen all morning..

then, i went to MATOS wic stands for Malang Town Square to buy some ingredients for making nasi lemak.. my first tryout in making nasi lemak..hehe..

and suprisingly, nasi tu jady!!! n sgt sedap..hehe..

we bought lots of things including house things la..and evrything sums up to Rp 300k++ (wow!! 1 hary je bley habis Rp300k,mn x cpat sengkek!!)

well, neway...tym sampai matos, ari memag redup2 cam nak ujan tp x ujan..

but then, abis shopping ujan da trun mencuah2 mcm awan bocor..

jdy terpaksa la amik cab..memang kne nek cab pon..brg bnyk kot..haha

so, wen to the info C n ask for a cab..

i stand in front of Matos patiently..

after 15 mins..no cab..maybe bcoz of heavy rain n jam..

i waited summore..20 mins..30 mins..

i lost my patience..

so, i ask d info C girl..

Me : Mbak, taksinya masih lm ya?

Mbak: iya mbak..jln lagi macet mbak..mending ditunggu aja..

Me : ok! (tapi tgh geram)

so, i keep on waiting...

5 mins..

10 mins..

15 mins..

hati sudah sgt geram..pergi ke infi C dengan muka sgt bengang..

me: mbak, koq taksinya belom dtg lgy? udah lm sy nunggu.. (ckp lembut2, i mn rety nak tengking2 nih)

mbak: msih blom ya mbak.. mending ditelpon aja mbak..

me (monolog): ak da tgu dekat sejam bru ko nak suh kol,dri tdy ak berdiri kat luar tu ko tanak plak sound..urghhh!!!

usaha menelpon juga gagal..suma serikat teksi kosong..

ayat standard.. "maaf mbak,skrg kta lgy kosong, ngak bisa melayan mbak..coba ke serikat laen ya mbak"

mampus r korang!!! da tau rakyat ramai asal wat teksi ckit2?

aku sgt beci ngn teksi malang.. bkn skali dua aku bernasib cmni..tgu bagai nak rak..rupa2nya xde..

urgh!!!!

aku mahukan kereta sendiri...

mama, aku mahu kereta..

jatuhnya era kegemilangan..

today's papers.

1.pediatric - repeat

2. perinatalogy - repeat

3. rehab medic - repeat plus some changes in d Q.. i did very bad coz im sooo sleepy.. smpei soklan 26 da tersengguk da..huhu..

4. method - sumtymes i felt dat bu win wants to get back to us.. huhu.. neway,she adds more Q and a lil changes in d repeated Q..huhu.. BAD..

conclusion:

i don wan to stay for UP!!! huhu..

today cam 50-50 la..uhukz..

percentage:

home for oliday (70% penurunan mendadak sb cm kompem x dpt B+)

UP (30% sb da kompem2 2paper anco..*cry*)

im not hepi.. T_T

sa far soo gooood..

Today's paper..

1. eye

2. ent

3. anestesi

4. modules

conclusion:

altho i kurang tdo bcoz of dis killer subject..

staying up lyke crzay trying to finish n understand the slides n syllabus..(tu pon x hbis..ent n module x sempat cover..huhu)

yet, lucky me my batchmate, the paper repeated itself..yup REPEAT.

Gosh, we r sooo lucky..hopefully the luck continues..

and the latest percentage (sejak bile ader nih?)

HOME for oliday (97%)

UP (3%)

i am still hepi... ^_^

Day 1..

pertualangan Alyaa dan kawan2 bermula ari ni..

pertualangan = final exams

so, from today i will keep track on how i did in my papers..

well, i really need to confirm if i shud stay for UP o not..

DO WELL = no UP

DO REALLY BAD = UP, we'll meet up soon...

and my choice is.. DO WELL = no UP.. ^_^

Today's paper..

1. Psychiatry - since d papers repeat themselves.. i guess i did well in psych.

2. microbiology - dis paper i dodn't take coz i got B+ edi.. hehe..

3. Moduls - well, dis paper i did PERFECTLY well..job well done org ckp.. hahaha.. d paper repeat itself again!!!

Conclusion:

i did GOOOOOD... thanx to GOD ALMIGHTY.. hopefully d next, next, and next papers wil repeat themselves again..n i can go back home witout staying for UP..

i'm happy...

Selfish..

Sell fish?

NO...not sell fish, its selfish ato PENTINGKAN DIRI SENDIRI..

Adakah aku selfish?

ye..aku memang selfish..

orang pun ckp aku selfish..

knapa? kalau ak x selfish maknanya org lain yang selfish..

jadi, ntuk aku yang x kuat iman ini..

tahap kesabaran sangat rendah..

rasa x puas ati yang sangat tinngi..

x bole kalah ngan org (ckit r)..

and tak mahu or susah nak trima pendapat or teguran orang..

memang jelas, ketara lagi bersuluh..aku ni sangat PENTINGKAN DIRI..

adakah aku kesah?

memang aku kesah..sb perangai ni x baik..

Tuhan x suka..

Orang pun x suka..

Kawan2 pun jady benci..

tapi bila kta da selalu sangat memberi..

tapi x dpt penghargaan..bkn nak balasan..PENGHARGAAN je..

adakah korang akan terus bersabar dan bersabar?

kalo ye..syukur alhamdulillah..

tapi sesungguhnya aku insan lemah..

aku penat dan ingin LARI..ye LARI..

tapi kemana? org ckp lari x menyelesaikan msalah..

memang x..tapi sekurang-kurangnya dapat mengurangkan tekanan yang kita hadapi..

aku ingin pulang..

pulang ke pangkuan keluarga..

pulang kepada kedamaian..

pulang kepada ketenangan..

pulang x kembali..

pulang memulakan hidup baru..(bajet cam ad mslh kronik je..huhu)

sayang UMI..

sayang BAPA..

sayang MAK..

sayang ANIQ..

sayang AKMAL..

sayang ADIK..

Planning is important..

In

• UAS
• Tugas Akhir
• ERP
• laundry
• Travel

Out

• OSCE!!

Pssssttt...

Blogging VS TA'ing

Blogging..

- tidak menstresskan minda

- tidak perlu risau ntuk mengejar tarikh due

- tajuk bebas..if keluar tajuk pun no hal..

- tak perlu nak dapatkan pengasahan dari sesapa..

- tidak dinilai prestasi..

- perbendaharaan kata penting tp asal faham sudey..

TA..

- sangat sangat sangat menstresskan minda yang sememangnya stress

- perlu megejar due date..

- kena dapatkan pengesahan sebelum meneruskan lebih lanjut..if tajuk tdak diperstujui..terpaksa trima hakikat ntuk tkr tajuk..

- prestasi memang dinilai..

- perbendahraan kata sangat penting..n so far, sangat susah ntuk difahami.. ayat nak canggih tp x faham watpe??

- kena stay up memalam ntuk kononnya menyiapkan TA..

- kena buat research yang sgt bnyk bagy membantu menyelesaikan TA..

- kena sentiasa berjumpa dengan lecturer ntuk berbincg pasal TA..kalo dia x suka terpaksa buat balik..

- TERPAKSA berhadapan ngan lecturer yang cerewet!!

kesimpulannya:

blogging lagy best dari TA..tp TA penting ntuk masa depan.. jadi blogging tetap menang..kenapa? sb ak tgh blogging nih.. TA aku xgerak2 pun lagy.. huahuahua..

OKla..masa depan lagy penting..so, here i come TA.. ^_^

The Ruins...

I've ruin my hair!!!

once i had beautiful and perfectly manage hair..

how i admired my hair every single day..

i shampooed it wif love..

apply d conditioner wif care..

dry it lyke my own baby..

and combed it so dat it wont tangled lyke crazy..

but NOW!!!

my hair is ruin..

mcm bulu ayam!!

serabut..serabai..mcm semak samun...

uwaaa!!!!!

KESEDIHAN dan kekecewaan berterusan...

wats nex??

'no title'

hari ini sy sangat kecewa...

sekian, terima kasih...

Suprise?

SUPRISE!!

sapa yang suka surprise?

mesty ramai yg suka, lebih2 lagy kalo dpt sesuatu yang kte nak kan..

arini pun ktorang dpt suprise gak..

memang mulia sungguh haty org yg buat surprise tuh..

betapa semua org berterima kasih kat dia smpai buat perjumpaan tau..

kagum x?

kagum la weyh..

btw, nak tau x ap surprise tuh?

x perlu la nk digembar-gemburkan kat cni..

ckupla skadar kami je yg tahu..

yg penting apa pun keputusan die nty..

nak x nak kena pasrah..

jadi apa yang perlu aku lakukan menganai brita gembira ini??

1. buat2 sebuk n concern.. (bajet cam x puas ati gak ah..konon je)

2. bole stat belajar kot sb skg ni mcm we have to expect d unexpected..

3. kna redi mental kalo sekiranya 30 subjek diuji dlm 1 mgu.

4. kna redi telinga..huh? telinga.. yes EAR, ntuk mendengar bebelan dari ibu yang tercinta sb kna extend tket yg bru beli smalam. (tket dah mahal kot,pastu ikut sdap ati je nk tukar2)

4. kna prepare telinga lgy.. ntuk menghadapi bebelan bile PARENTS dapat tahu result hancor lebur berkubur..

Pengajaran dari situasi ini?

1. JANGAN beli tket awal2 sb sistem uni yang sgt suprising ini.. (knapa ni jdy num 1 ah? ak pun tatau,tp cam penting..)

2. mak bapak anta cni suh blajar..jadi BELAJAR..bukan bermain.. bile da jadi cam skrg..pdan muka hang..

3. nex sem ubah perangai.. jangan nak main je.. masa makin pendek, kalo terasa nak jadi doc, sedar2 la diri tu skg..

4. da xley pk da..otak semakin sempit..nak kna wat TA dulu..

5. oo..pengajaran ke5.. jgn lengah2 wat TA.. skg pun da rushing kan..

da dapat pengajaran?

bagus..now sile mula pebaiki diri..

lotsa love..,

ALAG

A specially gifted child spent 18 yrs of his life in the basement of his home. Sheltered from sunlight and the rest of the world. His father believed that he will be safe there and the world will also be safer from him. The boy's supernatural power will always make him different. When his father died, his life begins. Forced to live in the real world where life is a masala of good and evil, of truth and lies, of suffering and pain with a dash of greed, a handful of sickness and a good serving of love. Everything he knows are direct extracts from pages of books. He knows himself, he knows the truth about his powers but the world is not ready for it. Alone in the basement, books are his only link to the outside world.


Aku baru je pas tengok cerita ni tadi sambil konon2 nak wat TA..konon je..
cerita bes..
lagu bes..
pelakon pun mantap..
storyline okay..

BUT
ntuk aku..personally ak rasa cerita ni xde point pun..
macam biasa pas tgok satu2 movie tu, kta akan fikir 'moral of the story' kan.
tp ntuk movie nieh..ak x dpt fikir pape..
seriesly..im not joking!! i cant tink of any...
crite gossip girl tu lgy bnyk moral of d story tau..heheh..

jadi, untuk sesape yang bosan tahap maut or sesaje xde keje..
bole la tgok2 movie nieh..
ak tgok movie nieh pun sb ak tertarik ngn sinopsis dier..
almaklum, 18 tahun x penah tgok dunia kan..jdy nak tahu la kan.. *aku ni curious orgnya..hehe*

okla..itu je la aku nak ckp.. nk review movie yang bru ak tgok tdy..
sok lusa aku wat review buku2 yang ak da baca plak..
hee~~

ni lagu dari movie tuh yang aku suka..
cubala dgr n hayati lirik dier..
SABSE ALAG

lotsa love..,

braces!!!! UTS2!!! Progress TEST!!! PBL!!! UAS!!!!

nampak gambar di atas?

itulah aku yang sekarang dan 2 thun yang mendatang..

bermula dari tarikh keramat 30/11/2009, ak telah di gam dan di'dawai' ngn benda alah ni...

walopun ramai yg terkejut knp ak menggunakan braces..

almaklum,gigi cantik da..ap kes nak pki besi..

tp ternyta itu hanyalah luaran dan sepintas lalu..

hakikatnya, hnya ak dan doc je yg tahu..hukhuk..

terseksa?

kesakitan?

kelaparan?

nyilu?

ulcer?

dan

PENYESALAN...

semuanya ada.. tapi semuanya harus ak hadapi dgn tabah..

bak kata Farah (kazen aku yang sot) "demi ntuk cantik"

Shemort pun ckp itu semua normal..

simptom2 first timer...

kalo org yg x memahami..dia akan ckp mengada2..

tp xpela.. hanya pemakai braces je yg tau rasa sakit dan seksanya menggunakan braces ni...

ok..habis psl braces..

nex topic..

UTS2...

bru je habis exam tdy...

xde mende nk ckp pon...

ak jwb sume paper ngan SANGAT cemerlang n konferm bole dpt A++++

nex!!

Progress Test..

amende Progress Test ni?

sebenarnya, ak pon x tahu sgt (walopun da kna brief aritu ole ibu win)

all i can tell is, its a test dat is similar to USMLE,lbey kurg la..

motif tes adalh ntuk ktorg masuk DM..

jadi, walopun tahu akan kenyataan ujian tu besok..

dgn bangganya ak ckp..ak pasti bole menembak suma soklan ngn jayanya..

ho yeah!!

nex!

PBL..

mlas r nk ckp..buang ms je...

lastly..

UAS..

bkn nak ckp psl UAS..tapi nak ckp pasal balik...yeah!!!

ak bakal balik ke mesia pada 2 jan, fl8 awal pgy ke JB..yahooo!!!!!

mesia..wait for me... i'm coming bebeyh!!

lotsa love..,

_aLYa_